"...made me lose my job/caused my marriage to fail/caused the earthquake (flood, fire, famine)/punished me for being human."
For God's sake, people (literally)! Take a chance.. if you believe in a supreme being or a creator try to stop picturing a cranky bearded old man in the sky who hands out rewards and metes out punishment. Just for one second, consider that this "being", by whatever name you choose, actually might have no preferences, actually might not think like we do, and actually might not be up there watching you and just waiting to lay you low with another plague or misfortune because of your perceived iniquity.
Imagine the freedom, the relief you might experience once you make this realization. Maybe "God" doesn't cause the bad things to happen to you or the good things to happen to you...maybe this being doesn't care other than to have you experience life with all its ups and downs, to experience the exhilaration of existence and consciousness with all the good and bad that life has to offer.
And it will make you sound more sensible and more rational, because really, think about it - the concept of an old man in the sky who makes life good when we are "good" and makes life bad when we are "bad" is really rather childish, isn't it? And then, as George Carlin so aptly stated, he will make you burn in hell for all eternity because he loves you.
Throw off these foolish bonds and do what thou wilt. As Rumi, the great Sufi mystic wrote - "He is a letter to everyone. You opened it. It said 'live'".
No Offense Meant to Your Innate Sensibilities
Take a former high-speed military guy, add a flagrantly narrow view of music and the arts, ignite the passion and conviction that so often come only in later years, mix in 30 years of psycho-spiritual experimentation, a healthy belief that the Ashkenazi and Sephardics really ARE the REAL Jews, add a dollop of cancer and poverty and VOILA! I have come.